I feel like a blunt underachieving pencil that needs to be sharpened.
A pencil that needs to achieve the many things sought after in one's lifetime before being discarded. Here i sit with the same unachieved ambitions held years ago when staedtler first manufactured me. Semester after semester the same results appear, always one short from that target. The chance to grasp my first class honors is now gone and i am very disappointed. I believe i studied as hard as anyone else but i guess as tharin was right when he said we are competiting with the top quantile of people. I guess i aint smart enough. sad but true.

i hope i can come back home and work, i miss home, been away for too long my roots are starting to get mouldy